More of lit class's insanity-driven writing. Was feeling slightly depressed about how it seems that all of the girls who I have liked have never wanted to be more than friends with me, and then sometimes when they consider it, they then quickly change their minds and leave me hanging out to dry. Moral of the story? Life can suck sometimes, but it gets better, just wait for it, you will be richly blessed for your patience, I was.
Why is it always the same story?
Why am I always just a friend?
Plenty of friends but none that are something more.
There's plenty of talking, that's never a problem, but I feel like I'm sometimes being used, nothing more than someone to listen to their problems.
And I've listened and advised on all kinds of things, from jobs to family issues and even relationship problems.
Why is it that they feel they can trust me with all of their private and personal stuff, but never even consider me as someone who could be a little bit more?
Whether its "can we still be friends?" or the idea of being anything more is never considered, it sometimes seems that "just a friend" is all I will ever be.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
"Worth it?"
This is something that I wrote while dying of boredom in my lit class over the summer, just never posted it. Thoughts that ran through my head when considering pursuing someone.
What would happen?
Would bonds be broken, ties be cut?
Relationships fractured and hate built up where friendship once flourished?
Is it worth it?
Do the promised benefits warrant endangering so much?
And what if the worst should happen?
That all friendship would be lost and said Treasure also fail to live up to my expectations?
Would I then not be lost and lonely? Ostracized by those I had alienated with my actions?
Is it worth it?
The promise of the new while risking something old?
The promise looks good, but might it be simply a mirage set up in the desert of my life to further lead me away from the true oasis that I seek?
Would it be worth it?
To throw myself into the arms of another, risking being dropped mere moments after being caught in said tender embrace?
It is a gamble indeed, but would the cost prove too great in the end?
Is it worth it, do you know?
Is she worth it?
I look back now and I see that the thoughts that drove this were really not as significant as I had initially thought. Nothing has been broken since I began following after this oasis, simply one thing has been weakened, which turns out might be for the best...
What would happen?
Would bonds be broken, ties be cut?
Relationships fractured and hate built up where friendship once flourished?
Is it worth it?
Do the promised benefits warrant endangering so much?
And what if the worst should happen?
That all friendship would be lost and said Treasure also fail to live up to my expectations?
Would I then not be lost and lonely? Ostracized by those I had alienated with my actions?
Is it worth it?
The promise of the new while risking something old?
The promise looks good, but might it be simply a mirage set up in the desert of my life to further lead me away from the true oasis that I seek?
Would it be worth it?
To throw myself into the arms of another, risking being dropped mere moments after being caught in said tender embrace?
It is a gamble indeed, but would the cost prove too great in the end?
Is it worth it, do you know?
Is she worth it?
I look back now and I see that the thoughts that drove this were really not as significant as I had initially thought. Nothing has been broken since I began following after this oasis, simply one thing has been weakened, which turns out might be for the best...
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